It takes a lot of personal courage for you to reveal this side of you to all of your Medium friends, Roy! Kudos to your courage! We are all human, we all have our frailties and personal demons to deal with. You are much loved and respected by us as our friend, I am your friend! I support you and cheer you on for you to overcome this frailty. I wish I could give you a real encouraging hug, but I’ll offer a symbolic arm around your shoulder and walked the path of recovery with you. You are not alone. You’re a strong person, Roy! You got this!