Fear not, Kaity! Your story is well written and very articulate. I consider myself a new writer also, I share your desire to please your audience and I suffer through the same anxieties of publishing as you do. I’ve seen video and written interviews of famous authors who admit to these same anxieties as you and I do. They all seem to agree on one thing: your anxieties may lessen as you gain confidence in your writing but they have to and must exist as a prod to force you to create better material to grow your audience and to ensure that your audience derives enjoyment and pleasure out of your work. I would encourage you to welcome your anxieties and keep writing. You write well. Thanks for the good read!